Well well well, looks like the cat dragged me in..lol! I've missed J~land so much lately. Thought it was about time I updated a bit.
Right, going back to a few weeks ago, I got in BIG trouble at work for mentioning the company name on my facebook (Facebook, for those who don't know, is a site very similar to 'Myspace') account. Story is, I was off sick for just under 2 weeks cos I had gastric flu (That's what the doctor called it), AND he gave me a sicknote for work. But, as the week after was my birthday week, I went out while I was ill to celebrate with friends. The photos from the night were put on facebook by friends of mine. Now, most of the management at work are also on facebook, and I knew that, but the way I saw it, I wasn't hiding anything, cos I genuinely was ill and had nothing to hide. Everyone who came out with us on these nights can verify that I kept having to leave early, and was ill while I was actually there. While I was off work, I was told that some individuals at work were talking about me behind my back, saying that I wasn't really ill, etc, etc, so on my facebook, I posted a message to anyone who wanted to read it saying that I didn't care what they thought and that I'd be back to work when my sick note ran out. Anyways, this caused a BIG problem for me at work as I had an official meeting with management and some staff. Apparently, my message was 'Insulting' to all at work, which I wasn't gonna stand for at all, so I fought my side, they fought theirs. Apparently, insulting someone in writing is more serious than if you just say something, which resulted in me calling someone a name in the meeting but arguing that I can't get in trouble for it as I'd SAID it, NOT written it. I got my point across. Anyways, long story short, everything's ok now, and I do realise that I was a little foolish, but at the same time, my private life is my own, so that's that.
I also have a NEW JOB now which I start my first shift for in 3 hours (omg, I really need to shower and get ready!). I'm now an official youth worker, dealing with kids on drugs, with a criminal record, that kinda thing... I also deal with youngsters who are actually carers themselves. Some of these kids are 7 years old, yet they get up, take care of their Mum or Dad, then get ready and go to school, just to come home and start again. It's heartbreaking. I get to plan days out and provide activities for them to give them a break from their real lives, and the best thing is, I'm actually the one to carry this stuff out, meaning that if I plan a trip for them, I go with them and look after them (not alone though, obviously). I'm REALLY excited. Finally, a job with a purpose. It all started when I was serving the mother of one of my friends at work. We got chatting, she asked if I was interested in youth work, and the rest went from there. They said they needed a young man to bond with these kids, cos the majority are female or middle aged men, so I'm the youngest worker there. I just hope I can create a bond with these kids tonight. Well, I say kids but tonight's group is 13-19 years, so I'm a little nervous. On friday, I work with the 'Open Opportunities' group, which is down syndrome, mentally or physically disabled kids. The actual work doesn't bother me, but I've got to admit, I'm feeling VERY under confident about everything. What if I screw up or something?! I guess these are all natural feelings to be having, but I just can't wait to be in there for a few weeks and get used to everything. My worst probable fear is all to do with my sexuality. Teenagers, at least in their 'Gang' state aren't comfortable with gay guys. I don't wanna provoke or antagonise them. I never display my sexuality anyways so they might not even know, but I just KNOW that someone's gonna ask, and I've been instructed to say ANYTHING to throw them off track as they aren't allowed to know personal details about any of us. We're allowed to befriend them, but the golden rule is 'You're NOT their friend'. Took me a while to understand that as it seemed a bit harsh, but I think I get it now.
Oh and I start my recordings in the studio in the next week or so, so I'l post them on here when they're ready.
Busy busy busy.........
Anyways, I really have to rush but I'll update later on to let you know how it all went. If you happen to feel a bit bored later, could you pray for me please? lol! I think I need it.
Hope you're all ok. Miss ya all!