Saturday, 28 July 2007

'I just fall in love again' (Musical entry 2)


Here's my Mum singing 'I just fall in love again'. I LOVE her singing Anne Murray songs.....she's sooo good at 'em! We're trying to get quite a few songs from her, so I'll post more as I get 'em.

Click HERE to download her song, or you may have to right click and (Save file as).

If you like it, why not go over to her journal and let her know. Thanks!

Hope you're all well today!



'Floor Filler' (Music entry 1)

Two Musical entries today. One from me, and one from my Mum.
This one's mine. I felt in the mood to do something a bit happier. Everyone says my voice suits ballads more, but I like having a laugh and enjoying myself. I mean, I'm 23 for god sake, and all I do is write and sing about HEAVY stuff, so here's my take on the song that I posted the other day. Keep in mind, there are four people singing this normally, so I've had to put my own vocals all over the place to keep!
Hope ya like it...LET'S GO!
Click HERE to download. It should start up automatically, or may have to right click and 'Save file as'.

Friday, 27 July 2007



I think I've discovered what could possibly be the best song in the history of mankind!!!!!!!


Check it out!




Taxis, cops, and new opportunities!

Howdy folks....How's it goin??
I've not been in's 2:09, and I only got home from work an hour ago and I finished at 11pm! My bloody Taxi never showed up, leaving me stranded! I ended up sharing a taxi with a friend who finished at midnight, but hers didn't turn up till gone 12:30...GRRRRRR!!
Today, I've almost been recruited into the police force and had to pose as a witness at work. I witnessed a member of staff being AWFUL to a duty manager, just because she NICELY asked him NOT to chew gum at the tills. He just stared at her and carried on chewing. She asked him again, but he insulted her. I felt so sorry for her. She's known as an 'evil bitch' at work by people, but that's only because she's strict with things and HAS to do her job. If you're right with her, she's right with you, and although she's complained at me ONCE, I consider her a friend and we always have a laugh. So anyways, he put in a formal complaint about her attitude towards him, and I've had to come forward and say that she didn't do or say anything wrong. She didn't even have a tone to her voice. She was nice as pie!!
But anyways, I served an on duty police man today, and as he was cute, we got chatting (I'm a sucker for a man in uniform). After a few minutes chatting, I jokingly said 'Next time you come in, bring a spare uniform and badge and I'll come and work with you'. He looked at me kinda excitedly and asked if I'd wanna join. I said yes, but don't have much luck getting an application form, so he pulled a card from his back pocket and handed it to me. It's the recruitment line. He says they'll take me on now 'cos they're 'Crying out for people'. I can't believe my luck! I'll keep ya posted.
Can ya imagine me on the beat?? I can picture it now.....Two muggers running from the scene of the crime......'PC Ste' in hot pursuit, holding onto his utility belt yelling 'Come back ya buggers.......I got a brolly and I'm not afraid to use it!!'.....One mugger falls, scraping his knees...I yell, 'Oooooh, are ya alright love? That looked well nasty!!'....LOL!!
Another thing is, a guy I work with is thinking about setting up his own business soon and he wants to know if I'll go and work for him. He's had managerial experience before and wants to go into running his own cafe type place. I can't believe all of these opportunities coming my way!!
But...I'm sticking with my singing in the long run. Getting REAL lessons soon and can't wait!!
Anyways, that's all for now...Hope all's going well out there!

Tuesday, 24 July 2007

Every sad song you hear could be the soundtrack to your life,
No one hears you when you sit alone and cry,
People look over you or talk to the next guy,
You often think, why do I try?
The clouds seem to like opening up on you,
and you smile through the tears, as you're told to do,
You feel alone, sitting on a crowded bus,
You're told to 'keep your chin up', no one makes a fuss
You're going through the motions, heading towards a goal,
but someone forgot to tell you just what you're aiming for,
Life's not enough, and you're as bored as can be,
None of this is right, this isn't what it's meant to be!
Steven Moore '07'

Monday, 23 July 2007

Did she fall, or was she pushed?

Damn...there goes another day off work wasted!
I spent the first half of the day in bed and the other half wall papering with Anthony at his Mums house. I finally thought I'd got a day to practise my breathing lessons and stuff...grrrrrr!
Not much to say today....just checking in really.
Random Video Of The Week
Eastenders (British Soap Opera)
This week, after months of torture from Stella (played by Sophie Thompson, sister of Emma Thompson), 11 year old Ben finally tells Phil (his Dad) what she's been doing to him during their wedding ceremony! She runs from the church, but in this scene, Phil catches up to her......(Love this actress!!)...Did she fall, or was she pushed?


Ooh...I love my soaps! lol!




Rain and traitors......

Hello J-Landibu'ians,
How are ya?
Horrible day...horrible, horrible, horrible, but I was expecting that after yesterdays' extremely lucky day. The flooding in the UK is carrying on, although it hasn't affected us this time. It makes me laugh how some are saying that the floods are getting worse now, because they didn't see it here a month! We knew it was this bad since then. All those times that I've seen flooding stories from around the world on T.V. None of us realised that it could start happening here! Strange days that we're living in isn't it? The worlds' temperature's increasing, the weather's gone insane, and even foreign insects are moving up the globe. Are we all just confused as hell right now or what? It got me the other day. I was talking to an old lady at work and she started talking about the weather and how different things are now. It was horrible, 'cos as she was talking of how things were 'back in the day', I could see in her eyes that she was scared, shocked  and upset at the state of things now. She talked of how summers in the past were always warm and lovely, and then compared it to now! I know what she means though, 'cos as kids, we'd enjoy none stop sunshine and heat during the 6 week holidays from school. Seriously, I can hardly ever remember a bad day back then, and it is sad. Really sad.
Anyways, moving on...
Me and my group of mates at work have realised that we have a traitor in our midst. Someone is reporting back to the managers with everything that we talk about, and I mean everything! We've been pointing the finger at everyone (see, they're playing with our minds, trying to turn us against each other!!) but I definitely know who's to blame now. I've set up a little test. I've told this particular individual a white lie and I guarantee that it'll spread round the shop like wildfire. Come Tuesday (my next shift), I'll know who's doing the shit stirring, and I can'twait to confront them about it. (Jerry Springer audience voice - That bitch is goin' down fool!!) lol! Only kidding, I wont be telling everyone about it 'cos I wouldn't want her work life to be hell, but I will let her know that the gossip that I gave her was a lie, let her know that I know and leave it that. That might make her stop and think about what she's telling, and to whom!!
No matter what, if you've never heard this song before and are feeling a little down, you MUST watch this video. Consider it a personal favour. Yes it's cheesy, yes it's getting old now, and yes, the band have since split, but the words really cheer me up on a bad day! Hell, if we all thought like this, it might make terrorists drop their bombs and dance with the rest of us..hehe! I totally forgot about the song and re-discovered it yesterday....WOO HOO! If you're from the UK, you'll probably know this song anyways...;-)
Hope all's well out there, and thanks to all of you for commenting. I appreciate it, especially as I don't get around to commenting much. Thanks.

Sunday, 22 July 2007

All pooped out!

Where to start when describing the day I've had?
Well, I was supposed to start work at 6am today, which usually means that I'm up at 4am to get ready (I rush for nobody...hehe!) but at 3:30am, I was still laid wide awake. I ended up calling into work and telling them that I couldn't make it for 6am but would come in later to make up my hours if they wanted, so they told me to go in when I'd had some sleep. I called them when I woke at 9am to say I'd be in between 10 - 11am, but lo and behold, the 3 buses I have to catch to work were ALL late. Well, probably just the first one was late so I ended up missing the others by seconds. I shamefully rolled into work at 12:15pm, all ready to take a verbal beating from the duty manager (who has a reputation for being mean). I got changed in the locker room and got out onto the shop floor by 12:30. I could see the duty manager standing right down at the bottom section of the store, so I crept toward her, trying to dodge behind every customer I could find so that I could give her the element of surprise, but she spotted me right away and stared at me the entire way down the walk of shame. I walked up to her and painfully said 'Come on them....let me have it', thinking she was gonna yell at me, but ya know what, she looked at me, gave me a smile and then broke out into laughter. She then said 'Ya know Ste, in all of my years of working here, we've never had an employee come in 6 and a half hours late and get away with it. Get to work before I slap ya ass!', and carried on laughing, along with the duty manager. I was so shocked!!! I was still waiting for the lecture, but it never came. Instead, she told me which till to go on and said 'Thanks love'. Now if that wasn't a gift from up above, then I don't know what is! haha!
I spent the first 2 hours jumping from till to till, taking people off for their breaks, then later, I was called to the BIG manager's office for a 'review'. Again, I thought I was in for it, but instead, they asked if there was anything THEY could improve for ME!!! I almost said nothing (as I had bent the rules a LOT today), but instead, I took this as an opportunity to complain about my 15 minute breaks, which never gives me enough time for a cigarette, something to eat AND a pee. They listened, assured me that everyone gets the same amount of time for a break when they only work for 5 hours, BUT they offered me half an hours' break EVERY TIME I'm on, so long as I stay for 15 minutes extra a day. How could I say no?! THEN they ask me what I can do to prevent being late for a Saturday shift again, so I jokingly ask for my shift to be changed, AND THEY AGREED with a smile! I mean, oh my god, am I pushing my luck here or WHAT?! So as from two weeks today, I get 30 minute breaks, leave at quarter past the hour AND start at 12 noon every Saturday, which is MUCH better! I'm soooo thankful and speechless that they agreed to help me so much!!
They asked me to work till 8, and by 6pm, I'd not been sent for my break (which is against the law as we're supposed to have a break every 3 hours). I hadn't mentioned it because they'd been so great with me, I didn't wanna seem rude, but I was soooo hungry and had to go, so I called one of the bosses to ask them if I could go for my 30 minutes (I always get 30 mins on a Saturday). It turns out, when I'd been called for my 'review' in the office, they'd assumed that I was on a break, so they'd marked it down wrong...grrr! I eventually went though and enjoyed every second.
I had a great day, with lovely customers too. I love a good gossip with a complete stranger. You can find out all kinds of things, like, I never knew that Harry potter books had a kids sleeve, AND an adults sleeve. It's useless info, but there ya! Oh, we've sold HUNDREDS of those books since it's release yesterday. Everytime we sell one, we have to type a certain code in, and I can't get it outta my head cos I've typed it sooo bloody many!
On the way home, the bus from work took ages before it dropped me in Hillsborough. Then the Hillsborough bus was 30 mins late but it eventually turned up. I took a seat and tried to warm myself up, just to be thrown off for a further 25 mins as it had broke down!! To make matters worse, there was an evil drunk guy shouting at the driver, so threeof us had to keep things cool. Then after all the waiting,the driver tells us to get back on as the bus was now fixed! I couldn't believe it! I finished work at 8:15, and Anthony finished at 9:30, but we both ended up on the same last bus of the day. Just goes to show eh? lol!
Anyways, sorry it's been long winded, but I'm in a chatty mood right now.
OOH, good news, I've applied for THIS. This, along with something else I'm venturing into will be GREAT for me. I'll meet so many people too, all with the same passion, so I can't wait!
So all in all, a fair day with it's share of good and bad, but I can't complain. I'm getting up early again as I have to do it all again tomorrow. 12-5pm...oh!
Ok, I'll shut up!
Hope you're all doing well out there......
P.S. If you get chance, could you sign my guest book in my sidebar please? Thanks a lot!

~Damon says 'No' to Captain Kirk~


After months of speculation, Matt Damon has denied rumours that he is to star as 'Captain James Kirk' in the upcoming Star Trek XI which releases in December, 2008.


I'm kinda dissappointed because I think he'd make a great Captain Kirk, and he says that he'd love to play him someday (in the future).


Click HERE to see what he had to say about it. And wow, how hot is he?!!?


Saturday, 21 July 2007

'Ste Wars V'


Almost a year after the last Ste Wars........





Friday, 20 July 2007

One armed Lil!

Well what a week it's been, but today has been better. I had such a laugh with my mates at work as my manager was lovingly addressing me as 'One armed Lil' and came home feeling all refreshed. I've been bandaged up on the tills so every customer was asking what I'd done. I told them that I'd fallen down the stairs...haha! Sounded better than saying that I'd attacked an inanimate object...;-P
Forgot to mention the other day, I was in 'Boots' in town and wanted to buy a drink but didn't have any cash on me so I was gonna go thirsty, but just as I realised that I had no cash, I looked down and found a pound coin looking up at me. Only something small, but it cheered me up for the rest of the! Not as much as when I found £40 at the back of a bus one time..;-)
Hey, do any of you remember Ainsley, also known as Salonrose123 on aol? She had a journal a while ago and then another one called 'Second time around'. Well I've been worrying about her lately as I'd heard NOTHING from her, so I text her earlier today. She is doing great....better than great actually....there's only 6 weeks to go before she gives birth! How cool is that!!! She had to get rid of her computer to make room for the baby, so that's why she's vanished, but she says she misses all of us and hopes to be back one day, so I feel better for having got in touch with her.
I'm getting VERY much into music again lately, and I've been enjoying some new stuff from kelly Clarkson, Avril Lavigne and Bon Jovi. Here's his latest song from his new album 'Lost Highway' which I love!
Hope all's fine out there!

Thursday, 19 July 2007

My favourite show as a kid was.........


I used to run home from school to watch this!!

Omg, classic..I could cry, and such a strong message to kids too, which at the time we didn't see.

'Look Mum...talking stuffed toys!!!'




A message....



I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

Wednesday, 18 July 2007

The day after.....

Thanks to all of you for your comments and general 'help' lately. I really appreciate it!!!!
Last night ended badly when me and my brother had an almighty row on the phone. Years worth of stuff came up and we were both brutally honest, but he took things too far and basically told his girlfriend that I was only angry because I'd not taken my 'meds', which is absolute crap. The only 'meds' i'm on is hayfever and a tablet to help me sleep at night, and I don't even think I need that anymore. The doctor put me on the sleeping tablet last year when I was having those attacks, but they're so rare now that I don't think I should be on it now. I have NEVER been on any anti-depressants or anything which is 'mind altering' so to come out with something so evil and childish has just gone to show me that even now, years later, my brother's not changed and never will, so I've called it quits with him for good. I want no contact with him whatsoever. When I hear or read about stories like this from other people, it really saddens me. 'Brothers shouldn't be enemies' and all that kinda stuff, but this really isn't bothering me. Well no, I guess that's wrong. This bothers me for my Mum's sake. We're her only two and it can't be nice for her to know that we hate each other, but what can I say? We do and that's that. I've probably only seen him about 20 times in 10 years anyways, so it's not like it's a huge life changing deal for me. Forgetting that I have a brother isn't anything new for me, only this time, I WANT to forget him. Mum was upset as she wants me to be an uncle to his kids whenever they come along, but I don't wanna know. It sounds harsh, but there's stuff that I wont talk about on here that's drove me to feel like this. I guess the two biggest things that hurt me was him telling me that he's wanted to see me living 'On the streets' for years, which I think is just god awful. I could understand if I was a drunk, or a drug addict that was causing problems for my Mum, but neither is the case, so god knows where that desire has come from, and secondly, the fact that he's telling his new bit of fluff (about the 6th this year) that I'm crazy when she doesn't even know me. But, ya know, dragging my hate for him around is just gonna affect me badly in the long run, so I'm just dropping the baggage right now. He don't deserve shit from anyone with the way he treats them, so that's that.
Anyways, on to good stuff, I got a 'geeky' parcel through the post this morning. IT FINALLY CAME!! Yeah, you've guessed it by now if you know me, it's another Star Trek!
Only 3000 of these worldwide as it's a version that was only used once in the very first episode (That didn't star William Shatner. The Captain was played by 'Jeffrey Hunter') so I'm chuffed that it came today. Another one to the!
I also bought myself a new windows vista compatible webcam today, so I can chat to friends and do more vids and stuff now..woo hoo! Since having Vista, it's annoyed me endlessly that I couldn't use my cam, but now I can, so in your face vista!! lol!
Been walking round with 3 finger bandages and an arm support today for my right hand after the door attacked me! I thought my knuckles would be the worse affected, but to be honest, it's mainly my middle finger, my wrist, my elbow and shoulder that I've damaged. This shows me that I don't punch correctly, even in temper, because none of these areas should've took the brunt of 3 punches!  I felt like such a twit walking around town with one finger and thumb sticking out of this mummified! My friends certainly thought it was hilarious! It'll be funny tomorrow working the tills at work with my only good!
Hope all's well with you who's reading this right now!

Tuesday, 17 July 2007

Tornado warning (17/7/07)

Sheffield was put on tornado warning today (for real!), but little did I know that the tornado would be me. I'm not going into it all as people tend to judge when they don't know the whole story (which is very long and complicated) but I took my anger and temper out on a door and have almost broken my hand. My wrist feels like it's in pieces! Anthony had to drag me away from the scene, and if I'm honest, I'm glad he did, because I'm scared of what might've happened next. I went to work shortly after, only to be sent home after my duty manager saw my hand and realised the state I was in. I'm just at a total loss. Please, nobody tell me to take deep breaths and calm down because that's impossible. You don't know the situation, and I'm so fed up of people telling me to 'think of your mother'. Who the hell's thinking of me?! People are allowed to treat me however they like, yet I can't say anything incase it upsets my Mum. If everyone thought of my Mum as people tell me to, then I wouldn't have to argue in the first place. It's just like, Adam (my older brother) and Adrian can shit on me all they want, and I just have to stay quiet about it? Who tells them to think of my mother in all of this?! Even though I don't wanna be here, I'm no guest in this house. It's my home. I've been here for years, way longer than Adrian, and my brother's never lived here at all! Me and Mum have got through more than either of those could imagine. I've been here through thick and thin for years, then suddenly Adrian comes over and our past gets forgotten about! Also, Adam comes back with a chip on his shoulder after leaving us in a pile of shit for years, then everything's suddenly all about him! Who the hell do these people think they are? Adrian's in his 40's, my brother's 28, yet I'm the only one with the big enough balls to think of anyone else but myself in all of this, and I'm sick of it, so sick of it! Sorry for the rant, but it's gotta come out someplace, and my hand hasn't got the strength for another attack against a door! I've said it before and I'll say it again, if I had the money and the means, I'd be on the first plane out of here today and the only people that I'd miss would be my Mum and Anthony, not to mention the animals, but everyone else can rot in hell for all I care!
I thought big brothers' were supposed to look after their little brothers'? Isn't that what they do?! I have no brother anymore. My brother left for Nottingham one day years ago and came back as the selfish sod who stole my house from me and forced me to live in a house with a man that I wouldn't piss on if he was on fire!
Pardon my language, but it's gotta come out somewhere.
And what's worse, he knows all the trouble that this is causing but wont do ANYTHING to help! Oh, I could kill him!
This entry is for my own release so don't comment if you don't want to, and please, nobody tell me to think of my mother or to calm down. That's all I ask, but like I say, if nobody comments at all, I understand and it wont really make a difference anyway.

Monday, 16 July 2007

Some random snaps.....


I tried adding some pics a while back but AOL kinda screwed up and it all went balls up, so here are a few random ones, all taken in the last month or so. WHY? I dunno! lol!



        My gorgeous desktop picture..awwww!



Anthony tries to show me how unattractive it is to I care how I look when I'm having a!



Little Bradley wanders around Meadowhall on the floor (BEFORE the toxic waste flooded it!!)



Me frapping Anthony at Bowling..(He actually won)!



Awwww, my gorgeous babe with some random people in the back ground who kept laughing at our idiotic attempts to be good at the game..hehe!



                  Twinkle toes!!



Mum looking gorgeous with her hair done!




We stumbled into a whole new park we'd never even seen in Sheffield and there was a boat race on. I watched, PURELY for the sake of sportmanship....nothing to do with the throbbing biceps and triceps in the testosterone filled boats...HONEST!



A large view of the park.


There you have it..not much, but that's cos my cam ran out of batteries and I can't be bothered to charge '!


'Two Beds And A Coffee Machine'


Another musical entry, but it's not a video. I just sang and recorded this mp3 file. I thought I'd try something a bit higher than usual. Hope you like it. This song is about abusive relationships.



                  'Two Beds And A Coffee Machine'



Click title to save the file. It should open right up on it's own, but you might have to right click and 'Save as'. 



Two Beds And A Coffee Machine

And she takes another step
Slowly she opens the door
Check that he is sleeping
Pick up all the broken glass and furniture on the floor
Been up half the night screaming now it's time to get away
Pack up the kids in the car
Another bruise to try and hide
Another alibi to write

Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through

And there are children to think of
Baby's asleep in the backseat
Wonder how they'll ever make it through this living nightmare
But the mind is an amazing thing
Full of candy dreams and new toys and another cheap hotel
Two beds and a coffee machine
But there are groceries to buy
And she knows she'll have to go home

Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through

Another bruise to try and hide
Another alibi to write
Another lonely highway in the black of night
But there's hope in the darkness
You know you're going to make it

Another ditch in the road
Keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Silent fortress built to last
Wonder how I ever made it

Sunday, 15 July 2007

Tesco stores close after threats

Vigilance urged over Tesco threat
A Tesco in Kirkcaldy, Fife
Reader James Collins photographed a shut Tesco in Kirkcaldy, Fife
Police have urged shoppers to be "vigilant at all times" after threats forced 14 Tesco stores to shut.

Police closed the shops across the UK on Saturday afternoon but they reopened for normal trading on Sunday.

Hertfordshire Police, which is leading the investigation, said each store had been searched and given the all-clear.

"There is still no reason to believe that the incidents are linked to extremism of any kind," the constabulary added.

One line of inquiry is of a possible financial motive behind the threats.

The supermarket giant is understood to have lost millions of pounds in sales as the 14 stores were forced to shut.

Hertfordshire Police said the stores were closed on Saturday as a precaution and no-one had been hurt.

Tesco is continuing to work closely with police, it added.

'Go home'

One store in Barnes, south west London, reopened on Saturday evening.

Tesco stores were closed in Port Talbot, south Wales, Pontefract, West Yorkshire, and Market Harborough and Ashby de la Zouch, Leicestershire.

Other branches shut down were in Bury St Edmunds, Suffolk; Hucknall, Notts; Hereford and Ledbury, both in Herefordshire; and Barnes, south west London.

It came over the tannoy that we were asked to leave - basically, go to the cashier, pay for your groceries and then leave
Martin Jacklin, Tesco customer ^ (I love how they asked the customers to PAY for their groceries first, before leaving the premises as their lives were at grabbing sods!)

And some Scottish branches of the supermarket were also closed in East Renfrewshire and Fife.

Other stores were closed in regions covered by the Lancashire and Humberside police forces.

Darren, an employee from the Ashby de la Zouch store, said staff were told to evacuate the shop.

"We were allowed to go back in to get our belongings," he said. "We had to be as quick as we possibly could.

"We were informed briefly that the store was going to be closed for the rest of the day and we could go home straight away."

Martin Jacklin was shopping in a Tesco store in Hucknall, Notts, when shoppers were told to take to vacate the premises.

He said: "Me, the wife and the children were in there, basically just doing a normal shop and it came over the tannoy that we were asked to leave, basically, go to the cashier, pay for your groceries and then leave.

A spokeswoman from Hertfordshire Police said the force was leading the nationwide "criminal investigation" because the retailer has its headquarters in the county.


Anyone else think that I picked the wrong time to start working here? Lol! Nah, I doubt that anything will happen, but it's just a scary thought.


Oh and I just found out that Tesco's have opened their first US store in Arizona. Hmm....I'm thinking TRANSFER! lol!


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A moment of thought

I was reading a story in the paper today. A British guy's tank was crippled by a land mine thanks to the 'Al Quaeda', killing everyone else on board. He was being burned alive, but managed to climb out of the tank to remove his burning clothes and armour. He then managed to run 80 metres to hide behind a wall, but was then shot in the leg! He stumbled to the floor and rolled around in the soil to put out his burning skin, only for this to lead to major infections from the actual soil into his skin.
His Fiancee (back in the UK) was told on the phone while she was having her hair cut in a salon. 'Your Husband is seriously injured and will be returning to the UK tomorrow'. She didn't know what to expect. He was comatose for months and received major burns to 70% of his body. His face had to be re-built. She was at his bedside for months while he just lay there. He actually died twice but they managed to bring him back. His fiancee had almost given up hope, when one day, he opened his eyes and said 'Hey babe..How are you?'. Can you imagine how relieved she must've felt?! He's fine now, apart from the obvious physical damage, but this really hit me. Kinda puts things into perspective right? Those poor soldiers and innocent people out there getting killed or injured everyday. When's this gonna stop? The world is insane!!!
Anyways, I'm soo tired, so I'll catch you all tomorrow. Goodnight and take care of yourselves and your loved ones!

Friday, 13 July 2007

Honoured and Stressed!


Since last night, I've been enroled as a member of the 'Official Bitch club' by Donna and also gained an award from our Lyn for being a 'Rockin man blogger'! Thanks girls!!! They mean a lot to me and have really cheered me up today.






Well, I'm working again in a few hours as I'm covering a shift for Natalie at work. She's asked everyone over the last 2 weeks to cover her shift as she's going away to London for a few days, but nobody was able to do it. How could I say no? lol!

Feeling a bit stressed today as Mum's husband is obsessing about money. We're doing our best to make sure we pay our way and finish paying off money which we owe to Mum and Adrian, but our efforts never seem to be enough for him. Always nitpicking...always obsessing about EVERY single penny...constantly down my throat and I just can't handle it! It's making my life miserable and I hate feeling HATE!

Earlier today for example, it's my grandma's birthday today and I haven't been able to go out and get her anything, so as Mum had bought her quite a few things, I asked if I could buy one of them from her to give to grandma from me and Anthony. I chose this new 4 disc Rod Stewart album which was £10. I then transferred £20 from my bank account and into Mum's. £10 for what I owe her for the Rod Stewart album, and £10 for my bus fare to work as I have no money on me. I heard her explain this to Adrian, and he said 'I want to check your bank account first', implying that I hadn't really given her any money at all!  I mean, AS IF I would lie and rip my own Mum off! I'm disgusted and can't believe he thinks I'm capable of doing that to my own Mother. Who the hell does he think I am?! I can't see me being here much longer, cos if I stay, there will probably be more trouble, and none of us need it. Gawd, I just wish I had some sort of a plan, cos the way I'm feeling, I'd pack up and move to bloody Mexico if I could..ANYWHERE but here!

Anyways, I'm listening to Shania now, and you know that she always cheers me up, so I'm rockin my ass off!! WOO HOO! LOL!

Anyways, hope you're all well, catch ya later!


'I'll Stand By You'

Hey's another video I did today before I went to work. I'm trying to just be more natural when I sing now. I hate just sitting there and!
Hope you like it.



Oh, and my favourite song from the videos below was indeed number 2. Well done to those who got it right..hehe! For those who got it wrong, well, I like number 1!


Thursday, 12 July 2007

Musically Reminiscing

Prepare yourself for a cheese fest!!
Thanks to a reminder from this years' 'Big Brother' (I can't be bothered to explain it all) I re-discovered a band that I used to LOVE when I was a kid!! Well, I was an early teen I think, but I LOVED these guys and TOTALLY forgot about them! Here's two videos. One of them is my favourite song from them. Can you guess which??







Which is my fave? ;-)



Wednesday, 11 July 2007

Jaffa Cake delights!

Jaffa Cakes Brand Logo 

Jaffa Cakes - Deliciously self centred

The original recipe for McVitie’s Jaffa Cakes is a closely guarded secret, the delicious combination of light sponge, dark chocolate and smashing orangey bit in the middle was first created over 60 years ago.

Back in 1991, we fought a battle with the VAT man to prove that Jaffa Cakes are cakes, not biscuits, and therefore should not attract VAT.

In 1994 McVitie’s launched Mini Jaffa Cakes and Jaffa Cake Bars, to appeal to the growing lunchbox market. 1999 saw the introduction of the innovative ‘Tubes’ packaging and 2002 was the year of the Jaffa Mini Roll launch.

Jaffa Cakes are known for being irresistible but unfortunately, not everyone is prepared to get their Jaffa Cakes honestly. Remember the Munchkins, who would do almost anything to get hold of them! They were followed by another desperate mob in the 1990’s known as the Orangey Tangs who loved the orangey bit in the middle so much so we had to completely cover the Jaffa Cakes in chocolate, for a limited time, to keep them out.

The Jaffa Cakes brand team scored a McVitie’s first in July 2000, when they signed a sponsorship deal with Manchester United. Jaffa Cakes became one of Man Utd’s eleven ‘platinum’ sponsors but the only one focussing on kids in the UK. Jaffa Cakes were already enjoyed by the team and were officially launched as the teams favourite half time snack. The campaign’s success was based on the product truth that Jaffa Cakes are low in fat and high in carbohydrates and so are a great energy provider.

It was for this very reason that Sven announced that Jaffa Cakes would join the England squad in Japan for the 2002 World Cup as part of their training diet. The publicity was amazing, culminating in a spectacular story of a McVitie’s Jaffa Cake being found with the face of David Beckham, the team captain, on it!!!

In 2006 the fact that each Jaffa Cake is only 1g of fat has featured in the new advertising.

Two new flavour variants were launched in February 2006:

Lemon & Lime

Jaffa cakes are the official energy snack of the England Football team in the 2006 World Cup.


Ok, so those aren't my words, but they do speak the truth. Now for my version:


Jaffa Cakes are a pile of chocolatey fun that make me squirm with ecstacy and joy. Seeing a pile of these critters brightens up my day, no matter what. It's got me through floods, terrorism, traffic jams, work, no work, and even play, YES, PLAY! They're small and compact so that you can fit half a dozen in your mouth at any one time, and believe me, I do! It's better to just put put one in your mouth though, then you can suck off the chocolate and you are left with the wibbly wobbly, but gorgeous jelly part inside (these Jelly parts come in all different flavours). You can then take out this deliciously floppy wibbly wobbly jelly part and eat it, or if you so wish for humourous effect, slap your friend across the face with it! One swift slap will make everyone chuckle! I must warn you though, not all friends will find this amusing!!! Either way, Jaffa Cakes are fun and nibbly! GO BUY SOME TODAY!




Tuesday, 10 July 2007


How many woods can a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood?
I know, I have no idea what I'm talking about either, but sometimes, that's the way questions go. How many times can someone pop back into your life before they vanish forever? Will they eventually vanish? They don't have to. How do I know that they wont stick around for good? Why do they make a fuss about wanting to go, and then always come back, huh? There's no answer is there, but what the!
The same feeling hits me when I think of life in general. I mean, why have I sat here tonight watching "Roswell" on my pc when I really wanna go to bed? Why have I made several typo's in this entry already when I usually don't make many? What would I be doing if I was famous and rich? Hmm...Would I be out on a yacht somewhere? Would I be at some celebrity bash and drinking with Paris Hilton? Would Paris know how much I hate her? Maybe, just maybe I'd be sat in my big house with Anthony, playing pool with a glass of wine, surrounded by gorgeous men with no t-shirts on, OR I could be dining out with Goldie Hawn and telling her how much I loved her in 'The First Wives Club'?
So what is this entry about? I HAVE NO IDEA, BUT IT FEELS!
So anyways, things are going great here, besides me eating faaar too much junk food lately. Jaffa cakes rule! Mum and Adrian are away in Ireland, so me and Ant are enjoying the time in the house alone. Well, if you can call it being alone with 5 cats, 3 dogs, 4 fish, and a large hedgehog??
Been thinking about the future a lot lately, and ya know, I've decided that I'm definitely going to the USA someday. I'd love to live there for a few months, work there, see what it's like, and still be able to get back home afterwards. I got a lotta planning to do huh?!
Anyways, toodle pip, tally ho, ta ta, ttfn, adios, goodbye and goodnight!
P.S. WOO HOO, Jaffa Cakes rule!!!!!!

Saturday, 7 July 2007

July 7th

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Friday, 6 July 2007

'When you're gone'


Hey...well this is my 2nd attempt to add this (thanks aol) so I hope it works this time. Like I said before, it's not turned out how I wanted it to. I can hear the problems too, but what the hell....I like the!


Oh and I don't keep looking at the cam. I look at my PC screen as the lyrics were up on there to remind!






I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me

Whenyou're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

Thursday, 5 July 2007

Strange 4th July comment......


I had an email from someone I know over in the USA earlier. I can't tell if he's trying to pick a fight or what. Here's what he said...



the day we americans celibrate our freedom. oh yeah
from you over in the motherland!
hmm i wonder do you have fire works and celibrate there because Great Britian got rid of its "problem child" america? while we cleibrate independance'


Is it just me, or does that seem odd?! Also today, I've noted that some people just HAVE to start picking pieces away and causing arguments about historical things. Look, I have no interest in hearing people gloat in my face about how Americans regained their independence from the UK a long time ago. I love America and if I were still me and alive back then, I would've wanted you to get your independence too! This whole thing of 'Haha, we won you' and also ('We saved your ass in the war') means bugger all to me as I WASN'T EVEN THERE. Nobody 'WON' me or anyone else I know personally. I wasn't even alive, and neither were any of the people who do the gloating. You did nothing personally during that time, so why are you trying to pick a fight? lol! Also, about the war, I'm so glad Americans helped us back then, just as I'd hope we'd help America at the same time. Honestly, do you honestly think that I sit and kick myself over Americans gaining their independence?! I'm bloody glad you did! lol!

So why this need to try and start a feud over things that are long gone? I mean, get over it?!


I'd just like to note that this message is only to THOSE people that I'm talking about, not Americans in general, and I'm sorry if this has offended anyone.


Honestly, SOME PEOPLE! Grrr!


Long live America, and the UK, and Australia, and Canada, and Ireland, and France, and Germany, and Brazil, and....see my point here? lol!


Wednesday, 4 July 2007

Umm...general chit chat kinda stuff, basically.....

It's been a great day today. No particular reason, but I'm healthy, have friends, family, a roof, a job.....what else can I want? Plus it wasn't SO busy at work today, and I actually managed to talk to customers and other staff, rather than rushing through!
The staff are really nice and I've made some good friends. I like how the gay people are just normal people, rather than those that I don't get along with. Ya know, the queeny bitchy ones? That sounds awful, but I don't mean it to. I'm stereotyping here, and badly, but I know what I mean. Infact, it's those kind of gay guys that DON'T get along with me. I mean, I'll talk to anyone really, but sometimes we just clash and all the queeny types seem to hate me. No loss!
Anyways, I was given a friendly lecture by a friend at work today after they heard me tell a woman who was short of a few pence for her shopping that I'd 'Make up the difference' at the end of my shift. Now, I don't see the problem. It was a matter of 20 odd pence and I could've easily put it into my till at any time afterwards, so why the big deal?! The lecture's made me not want to do that again, but I'll feel awful. I don't understand certain rules and procedures. Sometimes, they're too strict with everything and it's suffocating! Honestly, was I in the wrong?! If I was just telling her not to pay, then yeah, but if I'm gonna make up the difference then why's it so wrong? Doesn't anyone believe in being 'Nice' to anyone anymore??!!
Anyways, my singing is still sizzling in the background lately and is becoming more an an issue for me. It's ALL I think about now! I've not had much time to practise properly but I do sing ALL the time when I'm out and about, under my breath maybe, but I DO! I also do my vocal lessons every now and then too. I'm excited lately because someone who works in a recording studio wants to record me and help me get my stuff 'out there'. He also wants me to be part of the show he's hosting at Christmas, so I'll keep you updated.
Also, our talented Morgan from 'Random Thoughts' has written a song for me to sing. She's done the music on her keyboard and given me half of the lyrics, and she's asked me to write the other half and sing it! Isn't that a great idea?! I can't wait. That's what I love about music...Creating, rather than copying! Singing along to backing tracks is ok and I love it, but nothing compares to singing original material...WOO HOO, thanks Morgan!!
Anyways, hope all's well with everyone! G'night!

Merry 4th July to one and all!!


Seasons Greetings!! lol!


Merry 4th of July!!

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Hope you all have a blast over there in USA! Although I hope you don't have the kinda blast that happens for 4th July in this movie! :-(

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'Oh say can't you see, by the dawn's early light, what so prouudddllyy we hail as the twilight's last gleaming' la la! Lemme hear ya'll!!!


From one of my favourite singers, the 'Star Spangled Banner'!




Tuesday, 3 July 2007


This entry went completely wrong...Thank you AOL, ya tight fisted sods!!

Millions being lost at 'Meadowhall'!

                      ***Some use of Strong-ish language***
Evening J-Landians!!
I have a dodgy stomach tonight. It's doing summersaults and my head's spinning. Euuggghh, I feel naucious!! Just wondering whether to phone in sick for work tomorrow....dunno. I'll see how I go eh?
'Meadowhall' Shopping Centre opened it's doors for the first time since last Monday's floods today, and me being the budding journaller went down to check it out. I was kinda disappointed as there wasn't anything to take pictures of. Instead, I was subjected to the WORST smell in history. Ya see, Meadowhall was built next to 'Blackburn Meadows' which is a water reclamation (is that the right word?) plant. All of us locals know it lovingly as 'The Shitbeds'. When the river Don burst it's banks (right next to Meadowhall), the 'Shitbeds' also flooded, causing all the toxic waste filled waters to come pouring into Meadowhall. They've done a good job cleaning up, but it still stinks. All of the shopping centre's bottom floor shops are closed. It's incredible how much damage this has caused. Every shop is boarded up now. Every shop is being re-fitted as all the floorboards have been ripped up, stock destroyed, shelves, carpets...everything is gone. That has to be like....over 500 stores maybe?!!  I dunno..maybe that's exaggerated, but I'm not sure.
What's even worse is that there's nothing to stop this from ever happening again, despite them having a £2 million flood defense system put in before last weeks floods!! (So I've been told)
Check this link HERE to see live footage from sky news. Meadowhall comes on about 20 seconds in.
The weekend has gone MUCH smoother than expected. We were subjected to severe weather warnings due to heavy rains, but we've had nothing more than the odd heavy shower now and then. Looks like we can calm down now.
The general atmosphere in Sheffield has been strange this week. Walking through town earlier was so depressing. Looks like the floods affected more than just properties!
I got quite angry earlier when I was in Meadowhall bus station with Anthony. I went to ask a member of staff where I was allowed to smoke now (as the smoking ban came into force on July 1st), and a bunch of 5 staff there told me that I have to walk off the premises. 'But, if I walk from the premises, I'll miss my bus', I said. They all just kinda shrugged their shoulders. That got me angry and led to me to say 'This is F***ing ridiculous!'. I've NEVER swore at staff ANYWHERE like that before and I feel awful now, but it just got me so mad. I wanted a cig OUTSIDE in an area that nobody was standing, yet that's not good enough?! As I've said before, in enclosed areas, yes I do agree with the ban, but certainly not in the outdoors where nobody's going to be in your immediate vicinity! It's a good job my bus came quickly 'cos I was about to sod their policies and spark up! lol! I could've got fined? So what..I'm a gay man on the edge lately..LOL!
Anyways, I'm moaning AGAIN. That's ALL I ever seem to do lately...moan, moan, whinge, whinge..LOL!
Did I tell you my stomach is dodgy tonight?? Did I tell you that we've been flooded lately?? lol!
Anyways, take care!

Sunday, 1 July 2007

The Sheffield Floods - 25/06/07

Things seem to have calmed down here in Sheffield.
Monday's flooding came as such a shock. None of us knew what was happening. We lost power, internet, phone lines, and mobile phone lines all at once. Some homes were left without power for days. Traffic lights had stopped working so the roads were chaotic to say the least. I can't believe what I saw from some drivers eager to break out of the traffic jams they'd been stuck in for hours. I understand their frustration (cos I was stuck too at one point with Anthony and my friend Hannah) but it was scary to see how this affected everyone, namely drivers!
I was on a double decker bus stuck in traffic as it crossed the 'Lady bridge' in town. We were heading home and at that point, none of were aware of what was happening. To us, it'd just been a horrible and wet couple of days, but then the river caught my eye and it soon became apparent what was happening. I can't believe I saw the river water level SO high and actually seeping onto the streets!!
This video of our local headlines shows the road that I was on. I wish I'd had my camcorder with me!! Grrr!
Anyways, all is well now but we have been given severe weather warnings for heavy rain today and tomorrow, but today wasn't as bad as they made out, so we'll see. 
My heart goes out to the 3 people who were killed that day.
Thanks to all of you for your concern! *hug*