What for?!

"Quoting someone else is soo unoriginal"

 

 

Howdy!

 

Before I start, lemme just say that you'd better not look at this page if you suffer with Arachnophobia, ok?

 

 

 

Ok are you gone yet??  Ok, good!

 

 

 

I really hate this time of month when my wages are gone and I'm awaiting next pay day (25th). Ok, it's not so long, but it's like a friggin nightmare. Having to borrow for bus fare and stuff. It drives me insane!

 

I work every day except Thursdays (Twice on Wednesdays) and this week I've worked on my day off, twice on Friday and once today. I've just found out that I wont be getting paid for Thursday, the extra shift on Friday OR today (I wont go into the reasons). I guess you could say I'm not happy about it. lol!

 

Ok, let me just get this outta my system, then I'll be cool.

 

Last week we were short of staff for a wedneday night youth club session. I was told that a level 2 worker was coming in to work with us. We need a level 2 worker at ALL times (I'm only level 1 for now). I was fine with that, but then I found out that this level 2 worker wasn't going to arrive until 7. 7 is what time the club opens, and so much stuff has to be done to prepare beforehand, so I went in on my own and set everything up 2 hours before I was due to be there, and why?! I get such shit pay compared to level 2 workers! She knew what time we have to be ready for...grrr!!  And last night, I went to my special needs group as I do every friday, just to find out that they'd basically left me in charge to do everything (because the usual staff were ill, away, doing a football event and doing a dance event), but supplied me with a level 2 worker who gets paid waaay more than me but did sod all! This is making no sense. I'm doing all the work that's expected from a level 2 worker, but getting crap pay for it. Their only excuse is 'You aren't trained properly yet'. Ya coulda fooled me! lol!  Not being properly trained isn't stopping you from leaving me in charge when it's convenient now is it?! I'm waiting for my training desperately to become a level 2 worker, but there's a queue which means I could be waiting for a long time so in the mean time, I have to do the work and get bugger all...sod's law! I'm sure we've all felt like this at times, but god it infuriates me!!

 

Right, now that I got that out of the way, I wanna talk bout some other stuff.

 

Do you ever wonder what people really think of you? I mean, REALLY think about it and try to see it from their point of view? I guess I'm talking about someone in particular in your life that, no matter what, you always clam up in front of or trip over your own tongue, say the wrong thing, blow an accidental snot bubble in front of on a cold day, try to hide it and wipe it before it's seen, but end up smearing it all over your face in the process, and then worry about it for days after?? I'm going through this at the moment and I have no idea why. When the person is around me, I suddenly feel inadequate with anything and it's driving me crazy. This person's not even trying to make me feel like that in any way. In fact, if they knew how they were making me feel, I know they'd be very upset about it, which is why I'm pulling my hair out here..lol! What's going on?!

 

So much confusion!!

 

 

Oh man, check out this picture. Someone apparently found this in their home..I woulda died RIGHT THERE!

 

 

 

               

 

Can you imagine coming home to THAT?! Jeeeeeeeez!

 

Is there anything I can get involved with in J~Land? Any community stuff going on that I don't know about? I'd love to take part in something..need to keep me brain goin..hehe!

 

 

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