Tuesday, 22 December 2009
Panic
Panic attacks have been occuring a lot more lately.
I've been off work for the past 4 months because of them. I'm having counselling to figure out exactly what's going on, but I don't exactly feel confident about any treatments they could give.
Ya know, and yes I AM aware of how melodramatic this sounds, but some days I feel so rough, I almost feel as though I wont live long. They get so intense, I'm often terrified that my body's just gonna pack up someday. I can't explain it any other way. I daren't say this stuff to family and friends, and my counsellor has assured me that panic attacks can't kill ya, but I can't help the feelings I get from them.
I wanna be able to watch a scary film without having to fight for breath. I wanna be able to run without fearing that it's gonna trigger a panic attack.
Anyways, sorry for the downer of an entry. Just had to get it out there cos I really feel like I'm alone and nobody knows what the hell I'm feeling or going through. AGGHHH!!
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5 comments:
YOU ARE NOT ALONE..I MAY BE THOUSANDS OF MILES AWAY BUT I AM HERE FOR YOU..AND I KNOW FIRST HAND THAT WHAT YOU ARE FEELING IS ALL SO VERY REAL AND IT CAN BE DEVASTATING..
LOVE YA AND MERRY CHRISTMAS!! XX
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karen
PS you do remember that right?
Very sorry to hear the panic attacks are coming back, Stevie. Hope you're having a great Crimbo this year at any rate. All the best for 2010!
Guido
Hey Stevie!! I just sent you a e-mail. Don't worry, you're not alone!
Lisa (lisita15)
http://beachmom15.blogspot.com/
God-I do hope you get over this. Can't imagine how hard it is. I have small panic attacks when I start to drive somewhere further than our town. I got terribly lost one time and I just pulled over and cried and cried and wanted to just be home without having to figure out how to get there.
((((((((I CARE))))))))))
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