It's 4:30pm and I've just had my first cigarette of the day. That's quite good for me. I usually have one as soon as I wake up! Then again, I didn't wake up till 2pm as I was up all night watching tv. I had nothing to get up early for today, so I figured why not? I usually like waking up really early to cram in as much as I can, but with no money until the 25th and nothing to do today, I figured I could just have a lazy day.
I hardly write in here anymore and I don't know why. I just don't seem to want to write much lately.
Work's going well and keeping me really busy. I can't believe how in control I've become of some things. The responsibilities that are put on me in my new job have shocked me. Sometimes I wonder if they realise that I'm not an actual qualified youth worker (yet). A few weeks ago, I passed my child protection training and earned my first certificate which was quite weird. I haven't received any certificates in that way since I was a kid at school. The actual course was harrowing in some parts. The things I saw and learned regarding cruelty to children was distressing, particularly one story which touched me deeply.
Some of the staff at work couldn't understand why I was so proud of the achievement, but they don't realise what it signifies to me. It doesn't just signify that I've trained and passed in something. It signifies a change of life style for me. I'm finally finishing things that I start and seeing things through. I'm finally seeing results of something which I'm doing that means a lot to me, and that's a new feeling for me. I love it!
My next course starts in May and that's my sexual health training. After that, I'm moving on to more psychological subjects, which I'm really excited about!
On to home life, I'm still at Mum's in my old bedroom. I'm still living around boxes that I can't unpack from my old house. There just isn't any room in here. Me and Ant are looking for our own place, but it's VERY difficult to get anything with the council. We were looking to private rent, but the prices are just too high for us. Even £400 a month is high for us, and that was for a 2 bedroom bungalow! lol!
I've made peace with my brother. He actually apologised to me, and that meant a lot, so to hell with it. I don't have the strength or time to hold a grudge anymore.
A few days ago, I got a message on my 'youtube' account from a song producer. He told me he'd been watching my vids for a while now and has written a song for me! He's sent me the instrumental track already and it's beautiful. Now I just have to record it. I can't wait! He has a few songs that he's written, and he wants to use me as the vocalist and then he's gonna promote the songs in various ways. He's actually promoting his songs, but I'll get promoted along the way too. Sounds like a great deal to me, and if nothing else, it's a lot of fun!! I'm so flattered that he wants to use me!!
Ooh, first official trailer for Star Trek XI is out now. Click here. Go see it...looks awesome! Boxing Day 2008.....you know where I'm gonna be! lol!
Anyways, I'm waffling on here so I'll wrap it up. Hope you're all ok!