Sunday, 10 February 2008

Work, training and other suff...

It's 4:30pm and I've just had my first cigarette of the day. That's quite good for me. I usually have one as soon as I wake up! Then again, I didn't wake up till 2pm as I was up all night watching tv. I had nothing to get up early for today, so I figured why not? I usually like waking up really early to cram in as much as I can, but with no money until the 25th and nothing to do today, I figured I could just have a lazy day.
I hardly write in here anymore and I don't know why. I just don't seem to want to write much lately.
Work's going well and keeping me really busy. I can't believe how in control I've become of some things. The responsibilities that are put on me in my new job have shocked me. Sometimes I wonder if they realise that I'm not an actual qualified youth worker (yet). A few weeks ago, I passed my child protection training and earned my first certificate which was quite weird. I haven't received any certificates in that way since I was a kid at school. The actual course was harrowing in some parts. The things I saw and learned regarding cruelty to children was distressing, particularly one story which touched me deeply. 
Some of the staff at work couldn't understand why I was so proud of the achievement, but they don't realise what it signifies to me. It doesn't just signify that I've trained and passed in something. It signifies a change of life style for me. I'm finally finishing things that I start and seeing things through. I'm finally seeing results of something which I'm doing that means a lot to me, and that's a new feeling for me. I love it!
My next course starts in May and that's my sexual health training. After that, I'm moving on to more psychological subjects, which I'm really excited about!
On to home life, I'm still at Mum's in my old bedroom. I'm still living around boxes that I can't unpack from my old house. There just isn't any room in here. Me and Ant are looking for our own place, but it's VERY difficult to get anything with the council. We were looking to private rent, but the prices are just too high for us. Even £400 a month is high for us, and that was for a 2 bedroom bungalow! lol!
I've made peace with my brother. He actually apologised to me, and that meant a lot, so to hell with it. I don't have the strength or time to hold a grudge anymore.
A few days ago, I got a message on my 'youtube' account from a song producer. He told me he'd been watching my vids for a while now and has written a song for me! He's sent me the instrumental track already and it's beautiful. Now I just have to record it. I can't wait! He has a few songs that he's written, and he wants to use me as the vocalist and then he's gonna promote the songs in various ways. He's actually promoting his songs, but I'll get promoted along the way too. Sounds like a great deal to me, and if nothing else, it's a lot of fun!! I'm so flattered that he wants to use me!!
Anyways, I'm waffling on here so I'll wrap it up. Hope you're all ok!


jeadie05 said...

Not waffling at all ,just getting us up to date with all your happenings ,so pleased you like your job so much and well done getting your certificate ,get a folder to keep them in ,photo copy them too ,then follow your progress ,and very well done you Jan xx

justplainbill said...

Stevie, good to hear from you again. Sounds like things are going well for you except for the housing. Had not idea of the high cost that you face. Good luck Bill

nightmaremom said...

waffling?!?!  are you kidding me?  Damn babe you've been so missed by so many......  it's a joy to read an entry from you.  I wish you'd pop in more often.  ::biting tongue::  I know this job is perfect for you and I am so proud of you.  You've accomplished so very much :)   Good for Adam apologizing.. hope his actions going forward fit the words...  life is to short to be angry with each other...
love ya

haileen2003 said...

Nice to have an update from you!,and glad work is good for you just now. You should be well pleased with yourself. Hope that 2008 continues to be good.
I have a chronic health condition, but coping, with medication.I did have two Eye Biopsies at the Royal Hallamshire, and now have a diagnosis, which cure though.
Thanks for your visit to 'Wishing-and-Hoping'.....regards to your Mum
Take care

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((STEVIE))))))))))))))I am glad things are going well.

pharmolo said...

Good to hear from you, Stevie, and am very pleased it's going well for you in all respects.

malagutigrrl said...

The singin' gig sounds like a great opportunity.  I got a lot of free recording time in Nashville because I liked to play on 2nd Avenue to keep my performance sharp.  I ended up giving my phone number to all kinds of recording arts students and recording arts teachers who wanted to use me for teaching/learning purposes.  Basically, I just showed up to do my stuff and they were learning how to record and mix me as we went along.

luddie343 said...

Wonderful to hear about your brother!  And I'm sure you and Ant will find something soon.  Hey that's incredible this guy wants to use you and he actually promotes all his stuff, so that means YOU!  Imagine, your first groupie!  Could be the start of it all, eh?  Go sing something lol!!!  xoxo CATHY

sneezy7125 said...

Oh sure. Do the big producer's song right away, but leave ours to collect dust. I see how it is...

lol love you Stevie.

PS: I wanna talk to you about some stuff when you get the chance.