'All I have to do is dream'

 

Today, me and Mum recorded this, one of my favourite songs EVER, ever since I was a kid. Have a listen if ya like...Hope ya like it.

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                        'All I have to do is dream' by Ste and Pat

 

I'd also like to take this opportunity to pay my respects to Jay Abdulah, a friend and colleague of Anthonys, who passed away yesterday at 4:30pm. He and his wife had been married for a year. They moved into their new home 2 weeks ago and their first child, a daughter was born last friday.

 

                                                  R.I.P

 

 

Eileen Regina Lange at 42

 

Happy 42nd Birthday to Eileen Regina Lange!!

Thanks to Leigh for reminding me. I hadn't even realised.

You all know that I'm a Shania nut!! Her new album is out next year and I can't wait, but even sooner, she will have a new song out in November as she's recording a duet with country legend 'Anne Murray'. I can't wait for that!!

 

Wow....42....that means she was 32 when I became a fan. God, time flies!

 

According to Recording Industry Association of America:
Come On Over - 20 Million Sold U.S.
***Best-Selling Country Album(tied)***
***Best-Selling Female Country Album***
***Best-Selling Single-Disc Country Album***
***Best-Selling Album of All-Time by a Solo Female Artist***
***#7 Best-Selling Album of All-Time***
***36 Million Sold Worldwide***
***Best-Selling Country Album Worldwide***

 

                           

 

 

            

Happy Birthday!

 

~Grandad~

We shared little in common when I was a child,

But it was always a joy to see you smile,

I still remember your jokes and games,

The way you'd call us all funny names

 

We'd ride on the tip of your steel capped boots,

We'd hear Grandma complain about her grey roots,

You always caught me with your endless stories,

When you fought in the war and when you drove lorries,

 

How the ship tossed you from side to side,

How the waves crashed, you thought you would die,

The time you fell whilst jumping up in the air,

You landed on your back, gave them all a scare,

 

You'd hose the kennels everyday,

'There's crap all o'er' we'd hear you say,

You loved your bulldogs, whilst they were here,

They'd bark all night, all through the year,

 

Every summer our bikes would break,

We'd run to you to set it straight,

Covered in oil, your hands would work,

But you'd be so busy, we drove you bazurk,

 

We grew closer with time, and for that I'm so glad,

Now I hope you get through, good ole' lad,

I love you so much, but struggle to say,

Now we wait and hope you'll be ok,

 

'Good ole' Gud', that's what they say,

Never a bad word, always brighten up the day,

Husband, Dad and grandfather, you always get us through,

There's no better time to say, Grandad, we love you.

 

 

 

That old man........

 

 

My cigarette break, about 9:30pm, I'm outside of Tesco's in the dark counting the minutes until I have to go back inside and sit at my till. I'm listening to my headphones and staring into the car park.

 

After not so long, I notice a figure stood at the other side of the wall. I quickly turn to see an elderly man staring at me. He was speaking but I couldn't hear him with my headphones in, so I quickly took them out and asked 'Pardon?'. He quietly replies 'You should put that out right now. You're a good looking and young guy, you don't need to smoke'. As he says this, his head begins to shake as I've seen happen with many old people, which usually means they're very emotional, and then sure enough, he starts crying. I'm speechless. What can I possibly say? 'Thank you' I say in the best way that I could, but he says nothing. He wipes his eyes, looks at me one more time and then walks away.

 

I couldn't see where he walked to because bushes blocked my view, but I just kept looking at where he was standing as I finished my cigarette. It felt eerie. An old man does a nice thing and tries to give me advice, and I'm creeped out by it? Makes no sense. This put me in a strange and quiet mood all night.

 

It's strange though. My friends and family have been telling me to quit smoking for years, and although I know they're trying to help, I soon forget their good intentions when I light up my next cigarette, but now I find myself constantly hearing that old man in my head whenever I light up.

 

Sometimes, it takes a stranger to make you see what loved ones have been saying for years.

 

 

 

             

 

Every time
I close my eyes
It's you
And I know now
Who I am

Yea yea yea
And I know now

There's a place I go
When I'm alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm fallin
That's where I'm goin
Where are you goin
Hold it close won't let this go

Dream catch me, yea
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

You do so much
That you don't know
It's true
And I know now
Who I am

Yea yea yea
And I know now

There's a place I go
When I'm alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm fallin
That's where I'm goin
Where are you goin
Hold it close won't let this go

Dream catch me, yea
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

See you as a mountain
A fountain of God
See you as as a descant soul
in the setting sun
You as the sound
As the _____________

I'm young

There's a place I go
When I'm alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm fallin

There's a place I go
When I'm alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm fallin
That's where I'm goin
Where are you goin
Hold it close won't let this go

Dream catch me, yea
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

..a few days later...

 

Hey all, sorry it's been a few days..........

 

The 'audition' went well the other day, although it wasn't exactly an audition, but more of an 'Open' night to check everything out. I thought it was an audition. Nevertheless, we sung, did the important stuff and now it's up to me whether I wanna be part of a huge show in November.......It's a swing concert. We had to practise 'Chatanooga Choo Choo'..lol, so much fun, although this girl sat next to me wouldn't stop talking to me. She was lovely, but I couldn't hear the director telling us what to do and stuff so I buggered up my lines a little. Oh well.....

 

Anyways, sorry it's a short one but I'm a little tired.

 

Hope you're all ok and thanks for every comment in my last entry..you guys are the best!

 

xxxxxx

BIG NEWS!

 

Hey guys and gals..(mostly gals me reckons),

 

BIG NEWS!

 

I got an audition TONIGHT! Woo hoo!

 

If I make it, I'll be in a big stage show on Sunday, 11th November in Nottingham. I can't wait! I'm so nervous....My hands have been soaking wet with fear all day..lol! With this audition, and recording my own stuff next month, I'm so thrilled, I can't even tell ya. With the CD, I have to have a photo shoot to, which is gonna be weird, but I've done that before with 'Madison 5' so I'm not so nervous.

 

Woo hoo.....2 hrs to go before the audition. I wonder what'll happen!?

 

Things have been going great here, apart from the guy who likes me at work. I told him that we'll never be more than friends, and he's not handled it very well. Now he's threatening to delete my phone number AND leave to go work somewhere else. It's stupid, but I'm actually feeling guilty about this, BUT WHY?! I've done nothing at all! I've told him to stop being silly and to stay, but with the way I'm feeling now, I'm tempted to just tell him to go! It'll certainly make things a little lighter at work.

 

Anyways, I better go and get ready. Woo, so nervous! In the words of Shania Twain, 'Let's go!!'!

 

xxxx

 

Update

 

 

Hey,

 

The recording studio went great! We talked for ages and he listened to my voice, which he liked, (a lot, apparently).

 

He let me see the magic of recording studios by playing me a 'Before and after' of a song. It was awful to begin with, but then he worked his magic and then the song was great. This wasn't me singing by the way. It was someone else's song.  Did you know that in a studio, all you have to do is sing a song, and then by a flick of a button, this machine adds male/female harmonies?! How cool is that?! It sounded just like a group of people had recorded with us. I was amazed, but insisted that I wanna do my own harmonies..lol! 

 

He was going to write a song for me to record as my main song, but after he heard my own song, he became dedicated to getting a full band together, re-recording the backing track with his musician friends and letting me use my OWN song as my main sound 'cos he loved it. How cool is that?!

 

Now I just need to figure out a name for the album. I'm thinking something strange maybe...strange but down to earth?

 

I never expected that I'd be singing my own song on my own album. He believes that I'll do well if I send the CD off to various labels, so that's what I'm aiming for. Recording doesn't start until mid September so I'll keep you posted. Woo, I'm so excited!

 

Last night, like an idiot, I deleted EVERY text message from my phone. I'd been saving some  of those messages since 2001!!!

I've lost numbers too, not to mention all the texts I'd saved from my December auditions last year, plus tons more. Grrrrrrrrrrrr!!

 

The price you pay for being sentimental!! lol!

 

I just wanna give a wave to Donna's Auntie, who I know reads my journal. Thank you hun, and I hope all's going well for you! *hugs*

 

 

Hope you're all ok

xxx

 

 

Recording soon! woo hoo!!

*ding dong* ... 'This is your camp manager speaking'.......take that as you will....

 

Not much been happening lately, but I'm so excited for tomorrow. Not only is it pay day, but I'm also going to a recording studio to talk with the guy who's gonna be recording my own make shift album. YAY....finally, a step forward. I've been practising like hell lately, and hopefully, it will show when the 'album' is finished. I'm not sure what or how many songs I'm going to be doing, but I can't wait! It's in Barnsley so Mum and Adrian are taking me. WOO HOO!!

 

I bought a new neck chain the other day. I've had the same one for years as my grandma bought it for me, but I lost it in our old house in Woodhouse before I came back to Mum's. I was holding in between my finger tips, swishing it through the air (as you do), when it suddenly flew off, went into orbit and landed perfectly in a hole in the floor boards. I looked for it for months but finally gave up. It's weird 'cos I saw EXACTLY where it went but couldn't find it. Mystery! Anyways, I feel better for having another one now. It's identical too, so grandma will never know..lol!

 

How's things goin with you guys? I've had no time to even read journals lately, so I hope you're doin well,

 

xxx

Guess that monster!

 

 

From the same director and company that is currently making the new 'Star Trek' film due in December 2008, this TOP SECRET movie was announced at 'Comic Con' last month. No details have been revealed apart from this poster and teaser trailer. Looks like it's gonna be a good one, but what's with all the secrecy?! What's the monster in the film? The director has said that it's not 'King Kong' or 'Godzilla' (which I thought).

 

Ooh, I'm so excited!!!!

 

 

                                

                                 Lady Liberty has seen better days huh?

 

              

 

Tags: J.J Abrams, Bad Robot productions, Paramount, Moster Movie, 2008, Star Trek XI

Kains' Debut!

 

How cute is this?! Anthony's nephew Kain singing along to 'Love Today' by Mika!

We got a star on our hands...:-)

 

            

Tags: Mika, Love Today, Kids, Funny

Catch up........

 

 

Time to catch up on here I think!

 

What a few days it's been. I'm so tired. Had the worst day at work the other day where everything that could go wrong actually DID and I was left looking like a complete prat, a few times in front of all the staff. I did nothing but run around ALL day! It also took me 2 and a half hours to get home that night because of stupid buses. I swear, if buses were smaller, I'd kick the crap out of 'em!!

It was such a bad day infact, that I got in at 11:15pm, went to bed a few hours later, and stayed there until 4pm the next day! haha! I've never slept as long in my life....well no, that's probably a lie!!

 

Whenever I talk to my friends about this stuff, they just say 'See, working is hard isn't it?', as if I've never worked before in my life. I usually answer with a list of all the jobs I've had and the fact that I worked nights for two years in a care home! That wasn't easy...especially being 19 and 20 years old! I had no daylight in my life..lol!

 

 

Anyways.........

 

 

I have bugger all else to talk about apart from the new Star Trek film, due out in 2008. They've cast someone to play 'Spock' back in his early days, and I think the similarity is really good if you think back to a young Leonard Nimoy. What d'ya think?

 

 

 

 

             

 

Zachary Quinto (from 'Heroes') and Leonard Nimoy

 

 

He's a lot like him isn't he?! The original Spock (Leonard Nimoy) will also play Spock again for one last time. Apparently, William Shatner isn't going to be in it, although the 'Kirk' character definitely will. To be honest, I still think William Shatner will be in it, and they're just saying that he wont as to make it a big surprise! We'll see eh? But, releasing ANY movie on Christmas day is stupid....I'm gonna have to go to the cinema on Xmas day, 2008 to catch the preview. I'm outraged...LOL!

 

 

Last night, Mum shouted me into her bedroom and told me to bring my bottle of Coka Cola with me. When I walked in, she turned to Adrian and yelled 'See, THAT'S what he's been drinking..NOT YOURS!', which made it quite clear that Adrian is STILL nitpicking about anything that he can to start an argument with me. This is what happens. He'll think about it, and if he can't find anything to argue about, he'll just keep thinking, or maybe even create something in his head! I've got my own drinks....lots of bottles. I wouldn't wanna touch his...period! Childish sod!

 

 

On to other stuff, there's a guy at work that is really coming on to me ALL the time and it's making me feel uncomfortable now. At first, it started out as a jokingly playful thing, but now I fear it's gone too far. The entire situation is making me feel physically sick. Don't get me wrong, he's a nice guy and I'm sure he doesn't realise how it's making me feel, but it's driving me crazy. Yesterday, after an argument with someone at work, this guy saw me in the corridors at the back of the building and he knew I was angry. I told him about the argument but I couldn't calm down. To calm me down, he grabbed my head with his hands and made me look RIGHT at him...really close up. I swear, he was gonna kiss me or something. I had to move myself out of the way. I really feel awful for talking about this 'cos he really is a nice guy, but as a good friend of mine has already said, I'm just gonna have to confront him about it and tell him how I feel. Grrr...what a situation!!

See, this always happens with gay friendships....that's kinda why I stay away!!

 

 

 

Anyways, goodnight folks...

 

xxxxxxxx

Tags: Star Trek XI