Monday, 27 August 2007

That old man........

 
 
My cigarette break, about 9:30pm, I'm outside of Tesco's in the dark counting the minutes until I have to go back inside and sit at my till. I'm listening to my headphones and staring into the car park.
 
After not so long, I notice a figure stood at the other side of the wall. I quickly turn to see an elderly man staring at me. He was speaking but I couldn't hear him with my headphones in, so I quickly took them out and asked 'Pardon?'. He quietly replies 'You should put that out right now. You're a good looking and young guy, you don't need to smoke'. As he says this, his head begins to shake as I've seen happen with many old people, which usually means they're very emotional, and then sure enough, he starts crying. I'm speechless. What can I possibly say? 'Thank you' I say in the best way that I could, but he says nothing. He wipes his eyes, looks at me one more time and then walks away.
 
I couldn't see where he walked to because bushes blocked my view, but I just kept looking at where he was standing as I finished my cigarette. It felt eerie. An old man does a nice thing and tries to give me advice, and I'm creeped out by it? Makes no sense. This put me in a strange and quiet mood all night.
 
It's strange though. My friends and family have been telling me to quit smoking for years, and although I know they're trying to help, I soon forget their good intentions when I light up my next cigarette, but now I find myself constantly hearing that old man in my head whenever I light up.
 
Sometimes, it takes a stranger to make you see what loved ones have been saying for years.
 
 
 

             

 

Every time
I close my eyes
It's you
And I know now
Who I am

Yea yea yea
And I know now

There's a place I go
When I'm alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm fallin
That's where I'm goin
Where are you goin
Hold it close won't let this go

Dream catch me, yea
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

You do so much
That you don't know
It's true
And I know now
Who I am

Yea yea yea
And I know now

There's a place I go
When I'm alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm fallin
That's where I'm goin
Where are you goin
Hold it close won't let this go

Dream catch me, yea
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

See you as a mountain
A fountain of God
See you as as a descant soul
in the setting sun
You as the sound
As the _____________

I'm young

There's a place I go
When I'm alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm fallin

There's a place I go
When I'm alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm fallin
That's where I'm goin
Where are you goin
Hold it close won't let this go

Dream catch me, yea
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

14 comments:

mawmellow said...

Good to see you back.....was wondering where you were !

edwardssoapy said...

Hi Stevie!

What a great song!  I heard it on Virgin Radio repeatedly on my way back from Devon.  I've been trying to find out the name of the artist. I thought it was a new song of Snow Patrol's, but I was wrong.

I know the above had nothing to do with the entry, but hope you've had a food weekend.

All the best,
Leigh :o)
http://journals.aol.co.uk/edwardssoapy/LeighsWorld/"

nightmaremom said...

nice to see ya back babes... very nice indeed.  Sending you hugs....  that is a bit creepy but maybe he was trying to tell ya something........ eh?  :::giggle:::
love ya
xxxxxx

deshelestraci said...

Sometimes we get signs that are more important than others.  I'd listen to him!
Traci

amy122389 said...

the words are haunting you, hmm?  without sounding bossy, I might take heed.  It does sound like a sign.  ::cue creepy classical music now::

miss you!!

~Amy

redpoppy007 said...

may have been a guardian angel.  Sometimes god sents them to give us messages.

eml625 said...

He was there for a reason Ste, you have to figure out what that reason was.

Be well,
Ellen

lisa41076 said...

Stevie , I think that man was there for a reason , by the way my idol Jorja Fox smokes too, I wish she would quit, Hugs Lisa XO

mansnott said...

I'm a big believer in,'things happen for a reason'. Just maybe it was a coincidence but it has made you think ever since. Take care lv Gazxxxx

gazker said...

Maybe he wasn't there at all Stevie? Rememeber all that time ago I told you things happen for a reason?
If I were you, I would make that my last ciggie! If it creeped you out it happened for a reason.
Gaz x

heavenlybama said...

I think he was there for a reason Stevie.  I don't know why.  Maybe he has lost family because of smoking.  I believe everything happens for a reason.
HUgs,
D
http://journals.aol.com/heavenlybama/journey-to-success

jeadie05 said...

Love from Jan xx

pharmolo said...

Hmm, strange coincidence, Stevie. Good advice, though.

luddie343 said...

It's easy to see why you enjoy songs like this, deep, melodic, has meaning.  You already know smoking is a killer, it's your choice to continue.  This guy could've lost a son, not unlike yourself, to smoking.  Sometimes people are just placed in our path and we can either accept or reject.  Right now we're living with the consequences of every decision we ever made.  So, any decision you want to consider?  Many love you Ste, but you should be the first to.  BTW, you couldn't pry a ciggie from my hand for yrs, until the choice was taken from me, I had to quit or die.  You could go that route, or....  XOXO  CATHY

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