Hey guys, How's it goin today?
Pavarotti died? Noooooooooooo! What a voice that man had!
I just wanna start by saying thanks to Bill for his apology comment in my last entry. Seems I misunderstood the comment, so I'm also very sorry. I think, as I said in my last entry, that it came at the wrong time. Kinda like the tip of the iceberg after a few incidents with some other people, so Bill, let's just forget it, huh? *Shakes hand*..hehe! Thanks so much for explaining, and yeah, I'm up for that drink whenever it's convenient....;-)
I've just woke up here kinda early considering I only had five or so hours sleep. Had a weird dream about Captain Kirk beating some bad guy up with a stick...LOL!
I'm taking myself to town tomorrow to buy a new top and jeans and stuff. I'm finally delevoping an interest in fashion lately. I'm not bothered about wearing name brands or whatever's currently popular. If I like it, I like it, end of, but so many of my friends will only wear 'Henley's' or 'G-Star' or something. Drives me crazy. They could save a fortune if they just bought something without a brand name plastered on there!
It's a weird time right now. A very old family problem has raised it's ugly head again, and all because Grandad made one stupid comment. Ya see, me, grandma and grandad were never close when I was a kid, despite me and my brother living just a door away. It always just seemed to be all about the other grand kids (a specific set too. Many other grand kids were 'shunned' too). We grew up believing that they had something against us, but they said that it wasn't true. As I've gotten older, I decided to forget all of that mess and just enjoy them while they're still around, but my brother will never be close to them. Now the other day, after reading my poem, Grandad said something very sweet, but also quite.....what's the word....Upsetting maybe? He said, 'To think of what me and him were like when he was a kid. I judged that lad wrong'. The actual comment is very nice, but it leaves the question, judged me for what?! What reason can he possibly give to judge a child?! It's just kinda confirmed that yes, he did have a problem with us as kids. I just can't figure out why though. We were kids. We weren't rude, we didn't cause trouble, infact we hardly even saw them! Nothing's been said about it, and I don't even wanna discuss it, especially after his ill health lately. It's not worth the arguing or anything. Besides, I don't think we'd get any answers anyway. It'd just get covered up like so many other things do in this family.
I'm not angry, just upset and very confused about the whole thing. Just when you think things from the past have been and gone, they always manage to come and bite ya in the ass don't they? hehe!
Anyways, hope you have a great day all (even if you read this a week later..lol!)